Later Nights… …Earlier Mornings: An Insomniac’s Tale of Life and Love

I’m not altogether sure where this is going to go…

…BUT…

…I am sure it’s going to go somewhere.

So stick with me, please?

Thanks!

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Have you ever been torn, My Peeps?

Wow.

Wait.

Okay, I do realize that can be taken sooooo many ways…

(((many of them dirty dirty)))

…so I’ll do my best to clarify.

Have you ever been torn by LOVE?

Knowing you want to be with someone, but knowing you really enjoy the person you’re with at that moment?

Well…

…it has happened to me.

It has happened multiple times, honest.

As far back as I could remember, I was generally with one person while already having wanted, and still wanting, to be with a certain someone else.

I get with someone because they’re very special to me, but all the while I have someone else on the front of my brain.

Someone else whom I already love/want/need/require.

Someone else whom I know I probably can never, and will never, truly call “MINE.”

And, no matter how wonderful things might become with the one person, you still yearn for the certain someone else.

Knowing/Hoping/Feeling/Thinking things WOULD be better if you were truly with the someone else.

It’s crazy, I know.

But, I also believe it to be human nature.

Right?

I mean, it is, right?

“The Grass Is Always Greener Somewhere F*ckin’ Else, And All That Jazz!”

That’s how that goes, riiiiiiight?

Hmm.

Moving On.

Until last night, I truly was torn.

Torn between the lover I once had, whom is now an exceptionally close friend…

…and the man I’ve loved for over a year, whom isn’t mine in any way except in the ways that should truly truly matter.

I’ve been torn, because I can’t spend all the time with the both of them that I’d really like.

And, honestly, it had become harder to juggle.

Last night, however, I had a long talk with the now friend (former lover).

We discussed so much, it was amazing.

He’s not the easiest to speak to at times when the conversation is of a personal nature such as this one was.

But, last night, he was jovial.

He was kind.

He was insightful.

He was respectful.

And he flat-out told me that he felt things would be better for ME if I really did spend more time with the someone else.

He’s not dismissing me.

We’re still going to see each other a lot.

But, now, I truly have the freedom to spend all the time with the someone else whenever I choose.

I won’t have to dance around and be pissy because I have to cancel on one to see the other.

My friend wishes me to explore things with the someone else, knowing now how I truly feel.

Thing is, all of this took place around MIDNIGHT.

And it didn’t end there.

My friend and I stayed up talking for hours and hours, and it was a truly grand experience.

We watched some “BATTLESTAR GALACTICA” and some “STAR TREK: TNG”…

…and then we watched “DARKMAN” on the Blu-ray.

By 3:30am, I was texting with the someone else.

And things couldn’t be better, at least in regard to all of the before mentioned.

We’re cool.

We’re all cool.

So, for the first time in a long time, the tension I’ve felt has lifted.

I feel amazingly contented and relaxed.

I’m happy.

Happy to know I didn’t lose a good friend.

Happy to know I didn’t lose the man I love.

Happy to know things are working out exactly as I had hoped, instead of how I had sadly expected.

Expectations can be a major High, or a major Low Low Low.

I was in the midst of a Low Low Low mindset toward my Expectations.

Instead, I was surprised with the elation of everything working out as I’d truly hoped hoped hoped they would.

Amazing.

I finally went to sleep around 5:30am…

…and was awake and writing this by 7:30am.

I know good moods aren’t forever.

They don’t last.

They can’t last.

Not really real ones.

But, for now, I’m into a really good mood mindset.

And I’m really hoping it’s able to perpetuate for a while.

That would be very nice.

I could use more good days.

This is the first time in a long long long time my not being able to sleep has led to something positive.

Insomnia almost always sucks ass.

Last night, it was an asset.

Go figure, eh?

Yeah.

Go figure.

;)

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(ALMOST) Random (MIDNIGHT) Movie Mention: “UNKNOWN” (2011)

UNKNOWN (2011)

UNKNOWN

…Stars MY MAIN MAN Himself…

LIAM NEESON

:D       :D       :D

…And Stars…

AIDAN QUINN

JANUARY JONES

DIANE KRUGER

&

FRANK Skeletor LANGELLA

:D       :D

It’s Also Produced By “Mr. UBER PRODUCER“…

JOEL SILVER

:D

Alright, My Peeps…

…Check-It-Out…

LIAM NEESON

Is

Dr. MARTIN HARRIS

…He Thinks?

But, Is He Really?

Well…

…We Really DON’T KNOW.

((wink wink))

You See, Shortly Into The Flick, He’s In A Car Crash.

He Hit His Head Hard.

He’s Now In The Hospital.

And, He’s Just Awakened From A Four (4) Day Coma.

He’s In Berlin.

He Doesn’t Speak German.

He Has No Official Identification.

He Might Know Some People, But We’re Not Really Sure.

He Just Remembers That He’s Dr. MARTIN HARRIS And That His Wife ((played by JANUARY JONES)) Doesn’t Know Where He Is, Nor What Has Happened.

He Then Remembers She Should Be At The Hotel They Were Originally Going To Stay In, And He’s Got To Go Find Her.

BUT…

…When He Does Get To The Hotel, And He Does Find His Supposed Wife…

…SHE DOESN’T CLAIM TO KNOW HIM AT ALL.

And Now Another Man ((played by AIDAN QUINN)) Shows-Up And Says That HE’s ActuallyDr. MARTIN HARRIS!!!

W.T.F.

?!?!?!?!?!?

And NOW The Flick Really REALLY Begins!!!

:D     :D     :D     :D

UNKNOWN

…Is Really A MUCH BETTER Flick Than A Lot Of Folks May Have Told You.

It Just Had The Bad Luck Of Coming Out After LIAM NEESON‘s Surprise Mega-Hit-Flick…

TAKEN

:(

UNKNOWN

…Is Fun.

It’s Exciting.

It’s Suspenseful.

It’s Clever.

It Was Good Enough For Me To Wanna Buy It, My Peeps.

I’d Say That’s PLENTY Good.

;)

Some People Told Me “UNKNOWN” Was Slow In Too Many Places, Which Ultimately Hurt The Overall Presentation.

To Those People, I Simply Say…

YOURE IMPATIENT!”

Dammit.

I Thought This Was A Classically Paced Thriller.

I Could EASILY See ALFRED HITCHCOCK Directing Something Like This.

HITCHCOCK Loved The Whole Idea Of The MISTAKEN IDENTITY Caper.

I Think He Would Have Relished In Directing This Flick.

Or, At Least, A Flick Like It.

I’m NOT Saying “UNKNOWN” Is The Greatest Flick Ever, My Peeps.

I AM Saying “UNKNOWN” Is A Lot Better Than You May Realize.

It’s Also Got MORE DEPTH And A THICKER PLOT Than People Gave It Credit For.

It’s Got MORE DEPTH And A THICKER PLOT Than “TAKEN” Had.

And That Is A FACT.

Period Period.

If You Haven’t Seen “UNKNOWN” Yet, Give It A Go, Kids.

If You’ve Seen It Once, And Didn’t Bother Going Another Round…

…Please…

…Do Yourself The Favor Of Checking-It-Out AGAIN.

It’ll Only Cost You 113-Minutes Of Your Life.

A Drop In The Bucket, Ya Know?!

;)

:D       :D

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