“He Told Me A Heart Can’t Smile… …If It’s Filled With Tears…”

Posted by youjivinmeturkey on 29Apr13

“…Growing Up, I Thought “It‘s All Gone“…

…Now It Comes Back To Me, Again…

…Ghetto Uniform…

…Collect Calls…

…That I Can Explain…

…All The The Things I‘ve Ruined…

…Abandoned…

…They Come Back To Me…”

…

“…HOLDIN‘ ON TOGETHER…

…I Try To Set The Night On Fire…

…HOLDIN‘ ON TOGETHER…

…I Try To Set The Night On Fire…

…HOLDIN‘ ON TOGETHER…

…I Try To Set The Night On Fire…

…HOLDIN‘ ON TOGETHER…

…I Try To Set The Night On Fire…”

…

“…He Told Me For Those Who‘ve Been Drowned…

…There Is No Refrain…

…With One And Only Youth…

…A Gospel…

…I Do What I Can…”

…

“…HOLDIN‘ ON TOGETHER…

…I Try To Set The Night On Fire…

…HOLDIN‘ ON TOGETHER…

…I Try To Set The Night On Fire…

…HOLDIN‘ ON TOGETHER…

…I Try To Set The Night On Fire…

…HOLDIN‘ ON TOGETHER…

…I Try To Set The Night On Fire…”

… … …

.. ..

Over This Past Weekend, I Was Introduced To The Band…

PHOENIX

…And This Song…

“HOLDIN‘ ON TOGETHER“

…Which I Immediately Fell In Love/Lust With.

It’s Perky.

It’s Quirky.

It’s Catchy.

It Makes Me Smile.

Can’t Ask For Much More From Your Music, Right???

RIGHT!!!

“HOLDIN‘ ON TOGETHER“

…Was Released On The Album…

“ALPHABETICAL“

…In 2004.

I Know I’d Heard This Little Tune On The Radio At Some Point, And I Liked It, But Knew Absolutely Nothing About It, Nor The Band Performing It.

Now, Well, I Simply Can’t Get Enough Of It.

I’m Unsure How Many Times I’ve Listened To It In The Past Few Days, But I Know It’s A Metric-Ass-Ton.

But, For Me, That’s Just How I Roll.

I Find Something New That I Greatly Enjoy, And I Go For It.

If It’s Song, I Listen To It Over And Over.

If It’s A Movie, I’ll Likely Watch It Multiple Times In A Short Span Of Days.

If It’s A Book, I’ll Read It All The Way Through, And Then Do So Again.

I Get On My Kicks, Ya Know?!

SURE YOU DO!!

A Lot Of You Are Exactly The Same.

I’m Just Sure Of That.

I Just Hope Y’all Enjoy This Little Number.

This Song Is Now Permanently Linked With A Special Someone In My World.

Every Time I Hear It, I Think About Him.

Sometimes, That’s A Wonderful Thing.

Sometimes, That’s A Horrid Thing.

It Really Depends On My Mood, To Be Honest.

Nevertheless, I Continue To Listen To It…

…And Love It…

…And Enjoy It.

Period.

Feelings Are Funny Things, And It’s Crazy How They Can Be Linked To Something Like This.

But, That’s Life.

Right???

RIGHT!!!

I Included A Link To The Song, So PLEASE Give It A Listen.

Let Me Know What You Think.

You May Not Enjoy It As Much As I Do…

…Or You May Enjoy It Even More.

You’ll Just Have To Give It A Go And Find Out!!!

Ready For A Musical Adventure???

AWESOME!!!

Then Let’s Go!!!

Have A Grand Day, Kiddies.

Take Care AND Be Good.

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How’s This For Logic?

Posted by youjivinmeturkey on 27Apr13

“I‘m In The Throws Of A Writing Slump, While Already In The Midst Of A Writing Revelation.”

…

“I Know Exactly What I Want To Say, But I‘m Struggling To Find The Words To Express It.”

…

“Things Are So Muddled, Yet They‘ve Never Been Clearer.”

…

“I‘d Say I Don‘t Know What To Say, Except That I‘ve Already Said It.”

…

“That‘s Where I‘m At, Which Could Be Nowhere At All, Yet Could Be Everywhere I Need To Be.”

Multipurpose-Post: The State Of My Union, Part I

Posted by youjivinmeturkey on 26Apr13

Good Morning, My Peeps.

How’s Things?

All Swell In Your Worlds?

Honestly, Things Have Been A Bit Odd Of Late Within My Own.

I’ve Been Going Through A Bout Of Some Pretty Extreme Personal-Depression That Has Been Sapping And Corking My Creative Juices. It Happens To Us All At Some Point, Or At Least Happens To Those Of Us Intelligent Enough To Understand Our Own Situations.

My Life Situation Just Plainly Sucks.

Period.

I’m Trying To Take The High-Road. I’m Trying To Keep My Head Above The Water I Seem To Endlessly Be Treading. I’m Trying To Carry-On In The Only Way I Know How.

I Just Haven’t Felt Like Writing.

Not. At. All.

As I Said To Someone Earlier…

“…I pick-up my pen, I put it to the paper, but nothing comes out. I’ve just been so caught-up in personal emotional BS that everything else has taken a back seat, so to speak. I know I’ll find my voice again… …it’s just not at this moment.”

And Then It Happened, My Peeps.

I Awoke This Morning, And The First Thing I Wanted To Do Was Sit Down And Start Writing.

So, Here I Am. Writing To Y’all, Hoping Things Come-Out Right.

I Truly Have A Ton To Say, Yet Know I Can’t Say Most Of It.

Not Yet, Anyway.

Why?

Because, I Don’t Rightly Know How Some Things Are Going To Play-Out.

It’s Hard To Write About Something When All The Facts Aren’t In.

I Just Know I’m Unhappy.

Honestly, Truly Unhappy.

Not In Every Aspect Of My Life, But In Enough Of Them To Cause All Of This Mental/Emotional BS.

Life Continues To Throw Me Curveball After Curveball, And I’m Really Starting To Get Sick Of It.

Sadly, There’s Nothing I Can Do About That Other Than Continue To Take It All.

But, Changes Are Coming.

Things Are Happening.

While My Personal-Opinion Of Myself May Not Be Very High At The Moment, I’m Starting To Figure My Shit Out.

I’m On The Verge Of A Major Break-Out, Or So It Feels.

While Some Might Crack Under So Much Personal Pressure, I’m Fighting Back.

I’m Fighting Back Hard, My Peeps.

Life Is Giving Me Both Barrels, And I’m Doing Everything I Can To Give ‘Em Right Back.

What Else Can I/Could I Do, My Peeps?!

I’m Not Going To Lay Down And Die.

I’m Not Going To Let The World Rape Me, And Take Away What Little I Do Have.

I’m Not Going To Stop Fighting My Fight.

Period.

I Just Don’t Want Y’all To Worry About Me.

I Don’t Want Y’all To Waste Your Time And Energy On Something So Frivolous.

I’ll Get It All Worked-Out.

It’s Just Going To Take Some Time.

Lucky For Me, I Have All The Time In The World.

So, We Shall See How This All Pans-Out.

If You Wanna Cross Your Fingers For Me (you know, for good luck and such) Then You’re More Than Welcome To Do So.

Down, But Not Out.

That’s Me.

… … …

…

The Other Purpose Of This Little Posting Is To Celebrate Something Very VERY Special.

I Just Reached Another Personal Milestone With This Little Blog.

Which Milestone Is That, You Ask?!?

1,000 FOLLOWERS!!!

That’s What!!!

Put THAT In Your Collective Pipe And Smoke It, My Peeps!!!

BAAM!!!

1,000 FOLLOWERS!!!

Seeing That Made Me Smile Like Nobody’s Business, Fo SHO!

I Always Kinda Figured I’d Make It To This Stage, Or At Least Did At One Point.

Then I Started Sloughing-Off.

Once That Happened, I Wasn’t Sure I’d Ever Make Here.

But YOU, My Peeps, YOU Kept Coming Back.

New People Kept Showing Up.

The Blog Perpetuated.

We’re Over 1,000 Strong, Now, Kiddies.

Isn’t That Just F-in’ A-MA-ZING?!?!

Good.

I Totally Agree.

I’m Going To Leave You With The Song Of My Morning.

I Don’t Rightly Know How Relevant It Is To My Before Mentioned Topics, But It’s The Song I’m Addicted To, Today.

Ever Heard This One?

“YOU GOT IT“

by ROY ORBISON

???

Great!!!

I Knew A Lot Of You Would Know It, And I Was Banking The Bulk Of You Would Enjoy It.

It’s One Of ROY ORBISON‘s More Peppy, Upbeat Numbers.

I Know, Most Of You Have Only Heard Me Play His Slower, Slightly More Depressing Tunes…

…But NOT Today.

I Do Sincerely Hope You Enjoy It, Kiddies.

And THANK YOU.

THANK YOU For Continuing To Support Me…

…To Support This Blog…

…To Give Me An Outlet Where I Can Honestly Get Something Back.

I Derive So Much Pleasure From Talking To Y’all, Reading Your Work, Exchanging Comments, Ideas, Etc Etc.

Honestly, I Love It.

Fo F-in’ SHO, My Peeps.

It’s FRIDAY, Kiddies.

The Weekend Is Upon Us.

Let Us All Try To Make It A Good One.

I’m Going To Do My Very Best, And Trust Y’all Will Be Doing The Very Same.

Take Care, My Peeps.

Try To Be Good.

See Me Soon, And Talk To Me Sooner.

L8r L8r L8r

What The Hell Is Going On Around Here?!?

Posted by youjivinmeturkey on 10Apr13

Honestly, My Peeps, So So Very Much Has Been Going On.

Life Has Been Quirky…

…Odd…

…Frustrating…

…Wonderful…

…Horrible…

…Exciting…

…Trying…

…Oh, So Very Very Trying.

BUT…

…I’ve Been Weathering It All Quite Well, I Would Say.

I Know It Has Been A While Since We’ve All Shot-The-Shit…

…Kicked-It-Back…

…Talked-Some-Shop…

…BUT…

…I Sincerely Promise There Have Been Plenty Of Quality Reasons.

You See, My Peeps, I’ve Been Trying Very Very Hard To Have A Life.

It’s Not Something I’m Really Accustomed To.

Like, At All.

But, I Have Been Trying.

I Got Myself A Man.

I Got Myself A Job.

I Got Myself Fired From Said Job Before It Really Got Going.

I’ve Been Playing The Helpful/Dutiful Son.

I’ve Been Playing The Helpful/Dutiful Grandson.

I’ve Been Playing The Helpful/Dutiful Boyfriend.

I’ve Been Playing For The Sake Of Playing.

I’ve Been Having FUN For A Freakin’ Change, And Trying To Enjoy Every Moment Of It.

Sadly, It Hasn’t All Been Fun And Games.

I’ve Had Multiple Family Members Die Over The Past Few Months.

:*( :*(

I’ve Suffered Through A Couple Bouts Of Fairly Extreme Illness.

Life Has Really Been Bringing The Heat, But Totally Keeping Me Honest With A Steady Supply Of Curve-Balls.

Sheesh, I Tell You.

Sheesh, Indeed.

I’m Writing This Today Because I’m Looking To Begin Again.

I Miss Working On This Blog A Bundle, Though I Admit I Could Have Come Back To Y’all A Lot Sooner.

But, I Chose To Continue Being A “Reblog-Whore” And Just Let Things Ride.

I Still Plan To Be A “Reblog-Whore”, But I’ll Be Injecting Myself Into Things Whenever I Can.

TODAY…

…APRIL 10TH…

…Is My Birthday.

Everyone Always Asks The Same Question:

"DO YOU FEEL ANY OLDER?"

Honestly, My Peeps, Yes Yes YES I DO.

Period.

I Know I’m Not THAT Old, But I’m Old Enough.

Old Enough To Realize I Have To Continue Trying To Have A Life.

Old Enough To Understand How Important It Is To Continue Onward.

Old Enough To Feel Old Enough.

I’m Tired, My Peeps.

I’m So Very Tired.

But, There Are Still Duties To Perform…

…And Life Goes On.

I’m Going To Leave Y’all For Now.

But, I Do Promise To Be Back Again.

I’ve Been Writing A Lot.

Pen-To-Paper, Ya Know?

Perhaps I’ll Be Sharing More Of That With Y’all.

I Plan To.

So Let Us All See If I Actually Make That Happen.

I Really Do Plan To.

As I Exit (for now) I’m Going To Leave You With A Song.

A Song That Has Quickly Become A Personal Favorite.

DEPECHE MODE Has Just Released Their Latest Album, “DELTA MACHINE“, And I’m Totally In LOVE/LUST With It.

The Song For Today Is…

“SOOTHE MY SOUL“

…And It’s A Real Kicker!

I Sincerely Hope Y’all Enjoy It.

I Find It Simply Exceptional!!!

Please Take Care, My Peeps.

I’ll Write More When I’m Able.

Until Then…

…Take Care…

…Be Good…

…See Me Soon…

…And Talk To Me Sooner!!!

Much Love To Y’all, Fo SHO Fo SHO!!!

I Remain Conscious, Even While Dreaming In My Sleep.

Posted by youjivinmeturkey on 28Feb13

—At Least, I’m Pretty Sure I Do. It Feels Like I Do. When I Wake-Up Wake-Up, I’m Exhausted. Regardless Of How Long I’ve Laid There, I’m Exhausted.

It Doesn’t Make Sense.

I Remember My Dreams… …All Of My Dreams.

My Dreams Are (put mildly) Simply Fu*ked-Up.

Period.

They’re Wild.

They’re Vivid.

They’re Crazy.

They’re Awesome.

They’re Dangerous.

They’re Beautiful.

They’re Horrid.

They’re Amazing.

They’re Disturbing.

All At The Same Time.

If Our Dreams Are A Reflection Of Ourselves, Our True Selves, Then I Sincerely Haven’t A Clue As To What To Say Next.

Perhaps I Sincerely Shouldn’t Have A Clue As To What To Say Next.

I Already Feel Like An “Odd Duck” In Many MANY Ways, So I Just Hope That, In This Instance, I’m No More Odd Than The Rest Of You.

Dreams Are A Very Funny Thing, My Peeps.

Sometimes, I Wish They’d Come True.

Sometimes, I Pray They Don’t Come True.

Sometimes, I Know They’re Going To Come True Whether I Want Them To Or Not.

Sometimes, Sometimes, Sometimes.

Sheesh.

Let The Day Begin, Already.

Time, Brother, You’re Holding Me Up.

I’ve A Place To Go…

…A Person To See…

…A Life To Live.

Right, Kids?!

RIGHT!!!—

I’ve Been Putting Pen-To-Paper So Much…

Posted by youjivinmeturkey on 27Feb13

…I’ve Nearly Lost Myself Here.

I Don’t Mean To Neglect Y’all, My Peeps, But I’ve Been Trying To Take Things In A Whole New Direction.

New For Me.

New For You.

New For Us.

My Fire…

…My Drive…

…My Want…

…My Need…

…My Desire…

…They’re All Returning.

Returning Harder And Faster Than I’d Honestly Known Was Even Possible.

I Was Burning-Out.

The Fire Had Seriously Dimmed.

It Felt Choked.

Smothered.

Almost Strangled Out Of Existence.

And Then It Happened.

The Spark Came Into My Life, And It’s Not Letting Me Go…

…I’m Not Letting It Go.

The Fire Is Burning Hotter And Brighter Than It Has In Forever.

Things Are Changing.

Inside And Out, They’re Are Changing.

And I’m Loving It.

I’m Loving Every Bit Of It.

Am I Setting Myself Up For Failure?

Maybe.

I Don’t Really Care.

No Risk, No Reward.

Right???

RIGHT!!!

Soon, You’re All Going To Start Noticing The Transitions I’m Working-Out.

You’re Going To Hear Me Talk A Lot About The “Clean Slate“ And How It Can Literally Mean Everything.

I Wanted Nothing More Than A “Clean Slate“…

…A “Fresh Start“…

…A “New Beginning“…

…However You Wanna Put It.

Now, I’m Getting That Chance.

I’m Making That Chance.

I’m Taking That Chance.

It’s Mine.

All I Have To Do Is Own It.

And, Own It, I Shall.

And Now, For Your Listening Pleasure, The Song That Totally Says Everything I Need It To Say Right This Moment…

“INSIGHT“

by DEPECHE MODE

…From Their 1997 Album “ULTRA” !!!

Enjoy It, My Peeps.

You Already Know I Do…

…I Am…

…I Will.

Always And Forever, I Will.

I’ve Given You An Insight Into MY Life…

…I Just Hope To Reward Your Loving Patience.

Later On, My Peeps.

We’ll Be Talking More VERY Soon!!!

“…There Were Moments Of Gold… There Were Flashes Of Light… There Were Things I’d Never Do Again… But Then They Always Seemd Right…” –PANDORA’S BOX (“It’s All Coming Back To Me Now” (1989))

Posted by youjivinmeturkey on 22Feb13

“…There Were Nights Of Sacred Pleasure…

…It Was More Than Any Laws Allow…

…Baby, Baby…”

…

“IT‘S ALL COMING BACK TO ME NOW” Was Originally Released By The Band PANDORA‘S BOX On The Album “ORIGINAL SIN” In 1989 !!!

…

“…If I Kiss You Like This…

…And, If You Whisper Like That…

…It Was Lost Long Ago…

…But, It‘s All Coming Back To Me…

…If You Want Me Like This…

…And, If You Need Me Like That…

…It Was Dead Long Ago…

…But, It‘s All Coming Back To Me…

…It‘s So Hard To Resist…

…And, It‘s All Coming Back To Me…

…I Can Barely Recall…

…But, IT‘S ALL COMING BACK TO ME NOW! …”

… … … … … … …

… … …

…

Alright, My Peeps…

…I Know, I Know…

…Call-Out The Lame Police On Me, This Morning.

I Know, I Know.

But, Hell, It Happens To Everyone At Some Point…

…Right???

RIGHT!!!

Now, I’m Not Going To Try To Defend My Position On This Song…

“IT‘S ALL COMING BACK TO ME NOW“

by PANDORA‘S BOX

…I’m Really Just Going To Let The Song And The Lyrics Speak For Themselves.

I Awoke With This Song Playing In My Ear, As I Managed To Fall Asleep (again) With My MP3Player Blaring Some Of My Favorite Jams.

I Know There Are Other Versions Of This Little Number…

…But, Honestly, This Is The One I Remember Most…

…And, This Is The One I Enjoy Most.

Again, I Know, I’m Lame.

My Bad, My Peeps.

My Bad, Indeed.

But, When I Awoke, With This Song Cranking Away, I Simply Felt Powerless.

I Was Caught Within Its Grasp.

So, I Listened To It.

And Then Again.

And Again.

Finally, Before Things Got Out Of Hand, I Knew The Only Way I’d Get It Out Of My Head Was To Blog ’bout It.

It At Least Had The Most Potential For Successfully Getting It Unstuck.

Sadly (or happily depending on your view) It Isn’t Working.

I’m Still Listening.

I’m Still Singing Along.

I’m Still Wishing I Could Properly Say All I’d Like To Say, Right Now.

But, I Know I Can’t.

I’ll Just Say This Is A Song That Feeds My Happiness…

…And Makes Me Smile To (apparently) No End.

Yeah, It’s A Cheesy Song.

Yeah, It’s Probably Not The Best Version.

Yeah, I Don’t Really Give A Rat’s Ass Either Way.

What I Can (and will) Say, Is That I’m In Such A Quality Place, Mentally And Emotionally, Right Now.

Feelings I Haven’t Felt In Seemingly Forever Continue To Bubble-Up To The Surface.

I Feel Good.

I Feel Happy.

I Feel Cared For.

I Feel Connected.

How On Hell’s Half-Acre Could I Even Consider Letting Those Feelings Slip Away?

EXACTLY, My Peeps, I CAN’T.

I WON’T.

Said Feelings Simply FEEL Amazing To Me.

I’m Content, Kiddies.

I’m Finally Content.

And, While This May Not Last, I’m Not Going To Knock-It.

I’ve Wanted To Feel This Way For So SO LOOOOONG.

How Could I Give It Up?!?

Again…

…I CAN’T And I WON’T.

Period.

This Song May Be Total Cheese-Balls…

…But It DOES FIT With My Current Mental And Emotional States.

That’s Good Enough To Make It Blog-Worthy, Right???

RIGHT!!!

Please Enjoy Your Day, My Peeps.

The Weekend Is Upon Us.

Let’s Make It A Good One.

We Deserve That.

We Totally, TOTALLY DO, My Peeps.

Totally.

I Know I’ve Been A Reblog Whore Of Late, But I DO Have My Reasons…

Posted by youjivinmeturkey on 20Feb13

…Mainly, I‘ve Been Out Living My Life.

And, Honestly, It Has Been WILD.

Not WILD As In “Exotic“…

…More Like “Chaotic“…’ish.

My Emotional Roller-Coaster Continues.

But, Without Some Of Those Emotional Lows, Would I Really Appreciate All Those Emotional Highs So So SO Keenly???

Doubtful.

Doubtful, Indeed.

I‘m Taking The Good With The Bad, But I‘m Content With The Give And Take.

It Seems Only Fair.

My Head And My Heart Have BOTH Been Working Overtime.

Often, They‘ve Been Working Said Overtime In Opposing Manners.

And, While There Are A Few Moments I‘ve Disliked, I Remain Happy.

That‘s The Primary Goal, Right?!

The Happiness?!

The Joy?!

The Good Stuff?!

That‘s The Game I‘m Playing, Right Now.

I Don‘t Really Know If I’m Winning Or Losing…

…But I FEEL Like I‘m Winning.

Maybe That‘s The Whole Point?!

Maybe?!

I Can Handle A“Maybe?!” Alllll Niiiiiiiiight Loooooooong!!!

Defeated… …AGAIN!

Posted by youjivinmeturkey on 13Feb13

Why Me?!

I Don’t Honestly Know Any Other Way To Say It, My Peeps.

I’ve Tried.

But, In The End, I Continue To Come back To Those Two Simple…

…Personally Scathing…

…Personally Crushing Words…

Why Me?!

Why Say “Why Me?!” You Ask???

I Don’t Actually Have An Answer For You.

Not A Good Answer, Anyway.

I Know We Haven’t Talked Much Of Late, But I’m Sure You’ve Already Noticed That.

My “Good Cheer”?!

It’s Gone.

I’m Back Down, Again.

I’m Discovering That My Emotions Are Rather Fragile.

More Fragile Than Even I Had Ever Realized.

Like, Ever Ever.

That’s Probably Because I’ve Spent The Bulk Of My Life Suppressing Them.

As I Slowly Let Them Out, I’m Forced To Realize More And More Why I Had Always Shielded Myself From Them.

To Be Perfectly Honest…

…I Sincerely SUCK At Managing Them.

Period.

I Will Say This, My Peeps…

…I’d Hand-Written A Very Loooooong-Winded Rant About What’s Been Happening Of Late…

…But, Now, I Sincerely Don’t Want To Discuss It All Right Here.

I Made A Promise Not To Write About My Current Love Life…

…Or LACK-THERE-OF…

…And I Was Honestly About To Break That Promise.

Then, Well, I Actually Took The Time To Think It All Over.

Just Know That Things Are No Longer “Going My Way” And It Has Been Quite Depressing.

I Know Things Will Never ALWAYS Go My Way, But In This Instance It Really Did Just Crack Me Over The Skull And Then Laugh At Me.

Have I Learned Anything From My Life’s Recent Events???

Yes.

Yes, I Have.

–>1.) BE VERY VERY CAREFUL WHOM YOU TRUST!<–
–>2.) IF SOMETHING FEELS TOO GOOD TO BE HONEST AND TRUE, IT IS!<–
–>3.) I SHOULD HAVE LEARNED BOTH OF THOSE LESSONS BY NOW, I JUST APPARENTLY HAD FORGOTTEN THEM… …AGAIN!<–