Category Archives: “Me”
Fighting Physical Cravings: How Does One Do It???
Sooo…
…How Does One…
…How Do YOU Fight Those Cravings Of The Flesh???
How Do You Not Feel Affectionate…
…Nor Aroused…
…Nor Just Plain Horny, When You See Certain Parts Of Your Lover That GREATLY Turn-You-On???
I Don’t Even Mean This In A Dirty Way.
Not Really.
The Blade Of Their Hip-Bone, Slightly Sticking-Out, Lightly Exposed, While You‘re Laying Together.
(((That's MY FAVORITE, By The Way.)))
Or, The Curve Of Their Neck Into Their Naked Shoulder.
Or, Their Amazingly Clear And Beautiful Eyes, After Removing Their Wiry-Glasses.
I Sincerely Can’t Help Myself In The Presence Of These Things.
Strange, But Wonderful, Sensations Flood My Mind And Body.
I Want To Trace, And Lightly Tongue, That Hip-Blade.
I Want To Nibble And Nite And Kiss The Neck, The Curve, And The Naked Shoulder.
I Want To Stare Into Those Eyes Allllll-Night-Long…
…And Into The Following Morning.
THE SPARK…
…My Muse…
…My Lust…
…My Love…
…My Desire…
…Makes Me Burn.
Not With Anything Bad.
No.
Well, Not Really.
But, I Do Burn.
I Burn With WANT And NEED.
How Does One, In The End, Fight Against WANT And NEED???
I Can't.
Remaining “Cool” And “Focused” During Crazy Times???
Are You Kidding?
ME??
Do THAT???
Riiiiiiiiiiight.
I Will Say “I’m Trying” And I Sincerely Hope That’s Good Enough.
I’m Trying Really Hard, Honestly.
Things Have Been Happening Like Rapid-Fire, And I’m Really Just Trying To Take Everything In Stride WITHOUT Losing Siad “Cool” Or Said “Focus“…
…It’s Just Really REALLY HARD.
Period.
THE SPARK In My Life Does Build Me Up.
But, THE SPARK Also Keeps Me Grounded.
Reminding Me Over And Over That “Keeping My Cool” And “Maintaining My Focus” Are Totally Essential.
Especially Now, While Things Are So Crazy In My Little World.
Sheesh.
How Do YOU Do It, My Peeps???
How Do YOU Stay “Cool” And “Focused”???
Do YOU Have A Routine???
What Is It YOU Do???
Is There Some Trick I’m Missing???
Sheesh, Again.
Lemme Know, Though.
I’m Very Curious, To Say The Least.
I’d Like To Know.
BRADLEY -Vs- “DARK CITY”: A Rematch 15 Years In The Making!
Opening Night.
1998.
I Was There.
I’ll Never Forget That Night, Honestly.
My Friends And I Had Decided Long Before It Was Released We Would Be Seeing This One On Said Opening Night.
Back In The 1980s And 1990s, That’s What Everyone Did On A Friday Night. You’d Meet-Up With Your Friends And You’d Head To The Local Movie Theater.
It Was Almost Like A Ritual. We Simply HAD HAD HAD To Go See Something.
Living In A Small Midwestern Town, It’s What We Had To Do.
It Was Our Best Option For Having A Good Time. It Was Either That, Or Go Walk Around The Mall.
I Know, Right, We Were Lame.
ANYWAY…
…We All Loaded-Up And Drove A Few Towns Over To The Much Larger Theater.
It’s About A 25-Minute Drive.
(((well we probably made it in less than 20-minutes, but it's SUPPOSED to take longer)))
Upon Entering The Theater, I Was Immediately Horrified To Find It Totally Packed.
The Only Seats Left Weren’t Ideal, To Say The Least.
We Took Said Seats, Anyway.
We Weren’t About To Miss This Flick.
Period.
Sadly, The Theater Was BLAZING-ASS-HOT!
Not Hot As In “Hip & Cool”…
…No…
…I Mean It Was F-in’ HOT HOT HOT Like Hell’ishly HOT!
Like 714-Degrees HOT!
It Was February, And Therefore Cold Outside.
So, The Theater People Had The Heat Cranked Allllll The Way Up.
That’s How It Felt, Anyway.
Couple That With A Totally Packed House, And Yeah.
HOT HOT HOT!!!
The People Sitting In Front Of My Friends And I Never Stopped Gabbing. Someone’s Pocket-Pager Went Off Like 10-Times. I Couldn’t Follow The Plot Very Well Because Of The Distractions And Became Very Confused As To What The Hell Was Really Going On.
It Was All Too Much.
Add In The Fact That “DARK CITY” Is A Dark, Slower-Paced Thriller And It Becomes Easier To Understand Why I Left The Theater Afterward Vowing To NEVER Watch This Flick Ever Ever EVER AGAIN!
And I Didn’t.
For 15 Years, My Vow Stood Strong And Unwavering.
That Is, Until Very Recently.
Seeing “DARK CITY” On Opening Night Was THE WORST THEATER EXPERIENCE OF MY LIFE.
Period.
It Had Totally Tainted My View Of The Movie.
You See, I Took-Out My Frustrations Of The Night On The Film. I Shouldn’t Have, But I Did.
My Bad.
Upon Watching It Again, Finally, After 15 Years, I Finally Realized I Had Made A Horrid Mistake.
“DARK CITY” Really Is A Quality Flick, My Peeps.
Watching It In The Comfort Of My Own Home, Without Distractions, I Was Able To Finally Appreciate It For What It Is.
A Very Good SCI-FI THRILLER.
It’s Well Acted.
(((starring RUFUS SEWELL, KIEFER SUTHERLAND, JENNIFER CONNELLY, and WILLIAM HURT)))
It’s Well Directed.
(((craftily done by ALEX PROYAS whom also directed another favorite of mine "THE CROW")))
The Sets And Special F/X Are Very Cool.
The Plot Can Be A Touch Confusing At Times, But You’ll Eventually Get It In The End.
All In All, I Was Saddened It Had Taken Me So Long To Finally Give It Another Chance.
BUT, In The End, I’m Super Glad I Did.
“DARK CITY” Deserved Better Than What It Got.
It Deserved Better Than What I Gave It.
SO, Here I Am, Trying To Rectify The Problem.
If You’ve Seen This One, GREAT.
If You’ve Not, Well, DO SO.
Some People Can’t Get Enough Of “DARK CITY“…
…Some People Can’t F-in’ Stand It.
WHICH ONE ARE YOU?!??!?
My Curiosity Abounds.
“He Told Me A Heart Can’t Smile… …If It’s Filled With Tears…”
“…Growing Up, I Thought “It‘s All Gone“…
…Now It Comes Back To Me, Again…
…Ghetto Uniform…
…Collect Calls…
…That I Can Explain…
…All The The Things I‘ve Ruined…
…Abandoned…
…They Come Back To Me…”
…
…
“…HOLDIN‘ ON TOGETHER…
…I Try To Set The Night On Fire…
…HOLDIN‘ ON TOGETHER…
…I Try To Set The Night On Fire…
…HOLDIN‘ ON TOGETHER…
…I Try To Set The Night On Fire…
…HOLDIN‘ ON TOGETHER…
…I Try To Set The Night On Fire…”
…
…
“…He Told Me For Those Who‘ve Been Drowned…
…There Is No Refrain…
…With One And Only Youth…
…A Gospel…
…I Do What I Can…”
…
…
“…HOLDIN‘ ON TOGETHER…
…I Try To Set The Night On Fire…
…HOLDIN‘ ON TOGETHER…
…I Try To Set The Night On Fire…
…HOLDIN‘ ON TOGETHER…
…I Try To Set The Night On Fire…
…HOLDIN‘ ON TOGETHER…
…I Try To Set The Night On Fire…”
… … …
.. ..
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Over This Past Weekend, I Was Introduced To The Band…
PHOENIX
…And This Song…
“HOLDIN‘ ON TOGETHER“
…Which I Immediately Fell In Love/Lust With.
It’s Perky.
It’s Quirky.
It’s Catchy.
It Makes Me Smile.
Can’t Ask For Much More From Your Music, Right???
RIGHT!!!
“HOLDIN‘ ON TOGETHER“
…Was Released On The Album…
“ALPHABETICAL“
…In 2004.
I Know I’d Heard This Little Tune On The Radio At Some Point, And I Liked It, But Knew Absolutely Nothing About It, Nor The Band Performing It.
Now, Well, I Simply Can’t Get Enough Of It.
I’m Unsure How Many Times I’ve Listened To It In The Past Few Days, But I Know It’s A Metric-Ass-Ton.
But, For Me, That’s Just How I Roll.
I Find Something New That I Greatly Enjoy, And I Go For It.
If It’s Song, I Listen To It Over And Over.
If It’s A Movie, I’ll Likely Watch It Multiple Times In A Short Span Of Days.
If It’s A Book, I’ll Read It All The Way Through, And Then Do So Again.
I Get On My Kicks, Ya Know?!
SURE YOU DO!!
A Lot Of You Are Exactly The Same.
I’m Just Sure Of That.
I Just Hope Y’all Enjoy This Little Number.
This Song Is Now Permanently Linked With A Special Someone In My World.
Every Time I Hear It, I Think About Him.
Sometimes, That’s A Wonderful Thing.
Sometimes, That’s A Horrid Thing.
It Really Depends On My Mood, To Be Honest.
Nevertheless, I Continue To Listen To It…
…And Love It…
…And Enjoy It.
Period.
Feelings Are Funny Things, And It’s Crazy How They Can Be Linked To Something Like This.
But, That’s Life.
Right???
RIGHT!!!
I Included A Link To The Song, So PLEASE Give It A Listen.
Let Me Know What You Think.
You May Not Enjoy It As Much As I Do…
…Or You May Enjoy It Even More.
You’ll Just Have To Give It A Go And Find Out!!!
Ready For A Musical Adventure???
AWESOME!!!
Then Let’s Go!!!
Have A Grand Day, Kiddies.
Take Care AND Be Good.
How’s This For Logic?
“I‘m In The Throws Of A Writing Slump, While Already In The Midst Of A Writing Revelation.”
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“I Know Exactly What I Want To Say, But I‘m Struggling To Find The Words To Express It.”
…
“Things Are So Muddled, Yet They‘ve Never Been Clearer.”
…
“I‘d Say I Don‘t Know What To Say, Except That I‘ve Already Said It.”
…
“That‘s Where I‘m At, Which Could Be Nowhere At All, Yet Could Be Everywhere I Need To Be.”
Multipurpose-Post: The State Of My Union, Part I
Good Morning, My Peeps.
How’s Things?
All Swell In Your Worlds?
Honestly, Things Have Been A Bit Odd Of Late Within My Own.
I’ve Been Going Through A Bout Of Some Pretty Extreme Personal-Depression That Has Been Sapping And Corking My Creative Juices. It Happens To Us All At Some Point, Or At Least Happens To Those Of Us Intelligent Enough To Understand Our Own Situations.
My Life Situation Just Plainly Sucks.
Period.
I’m Trying To Take The High-Road. I’m Trying To Keep My Head Above The Water I Seem To Endlessly Be Treading. I’m Trying To Carry-On In The Only Way I Know How.
I Just Haven’t Felt Like Writing.
Not. At. All.
As I Said To Someone Earlier…
“…I pick-up my pen, I put it to the paper, but nothing comes out. I’ve just been so caught-up in personal emotional BS that everything else has taken a back seat, so to speak. I know I’ll find my voice again… …it’s just not at this moment.”
And Then It Happened, My Peeps.
I Awoke This Morning, And The First Thing I Wanted To Do Was Sit Down And Start Writing.
So, Here I Am. Writing To Y’all, Hoping Things Come-Out Right.
I Truly Have A Ton To Say, Yet Know I Can’t Say Most Of It.
Not Yet, Anyway.
Why?
Because, I Don’t Rightly Know How Some Things Are Going To Play-Out.
It’s Hard To Write About Something When All The Facts Aren’t In.
I Just Know I’m Unhappy.
Honestly, Truly Unhappy.
Not In Every Aspect Of My Life, But In Enough Of Them To Cause All Of This Mental/Emotional BS.
Life Continues To Throw Me Curveball After Curveball, And I’m Really Starting To Get Sick Of It.
Sadly, There’s Nothing I Can Do About That Other Than Continue To Take It All.
But, Changes Are Coming.
Things Are Happening.
While My Personal-Opinion Of Myself May Not Be Very High At The Moment, I’m Starting To Figure My Shit Out.
I’m On The Verge Of A Major Break-Out, Or So It Feels.
While Some Might Crack Under So Much Personal Pressure, I’m Fighting Back.
I’m Fighting Back Hard, My Peeps.
Life Is Giving Me Both Barrels, And I’m Doing Everything I Can To Give ‘Em Right Back.
What Else Can I/Could I Do, My Peeps?!
I’m Not Going To Lay Down And Die.
I’m Not Going To Let The World Rape Me, And Take Away What Little I Do Have.
I’m Not Going To Stop Fighting My Fight.
Period.
I Just Don’t Want Y’all To Worry About Me.
I Don’t Want Y’all To Waste Your Time And Energy On Something So Frivolous.
I’ll Get It All Worked-Out.
It’s Just Going To Take Some Time.
Lucky For Me, I Have All The Time In The World.
So, We Shall See How This All Pans-Out.
If You Wanna Cross Your Fingers For Me (you know, for good luck and such) Then You’re More Than Welcome To Do So.
Down, But Not Out.
That’s Me.
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The Other Purpose Of This Little Posting Is To Celebrate Something Very VERY Special.
I Just Reached Another Personal Milestone With This Little Blog.
Which Milestone Is That, You Ask?!?
1,000 FOLLOWERS!!!
That’s What!!!
Put THAT In Your Collective Pipe And Smoke It, My Peeps!!!
BAAM!!!
1,000 FOLLOWERS!!!
Seeing That Made Me Smile Like Nobody’s Business, Fo SHO!
I Always Kinda Figured I’d Make It To This Stage, Or At Least Did At One Point.
Then I Started Sloughing-Off.
Once That Happened, I Wasn’t Sure I’d Ever Make Here.
But YOU, My Peeps, YOU Kept Coming Back.
New People Kept Showing Up.
The Blog Perpetuated.
We’re Over 1,000 Strong, Now, Kiddies.
Isn’t That Just F-in’ A-MA-ZING?!?!
Good.
I Totally Agree.
I’m Going To Leave You With The Song Of My Morning.
I Don’t Rightly Know How Relevant It Is To My Before Mentioned Topics, But It’s The Song I’m Addicted To, Today.
Ever Heard This One?
“YOU GOT IT“
by ROY ORBISON
???
Great!!!
I Knew A Lot Of You Would Know It, And I Was Banking The Bulk Of You Would Enjoy It.
It’s One Of ROY ORBISON‘s More Peppy, Upbeat Numbers.
I Know, Most Of You Have Only Heard Me Play His Slower, Slightly More Depressing Tunes…
…But NOT Today.
I Do Sincerely Hope You Enjoy It, Kiddies.
And THANK YOU.
THANK YOU For Continuing To Support Me…
…To Support This Blog…
…To Give Me An Outlet Where I Can Honestly Get Something Back.
I Derive So Much Pleasure From Talking To Y’all, Reading Your Work, Exchanging Comments, Ideas, Etc Etc.
Honestly, I Love It.
Fo F-in’ SHO, My Peeps.
It’s FRIDAY, Kiddies.
The Weekend Is Upon Us.
Let Us All Try To Make It A Good One.
I’m Going To Do My Very Best, And Trust Y’all Will Be Doing The Very Same.
Take Care, My Peeps.
Try To Be Good.
See Me Soon, And Talk To Me Sooner.
L8r L8r L8r
The Song Stuck In My Head: “CRYING” by ROY ORBISON (with k.d. lang (1987))
“…I Thought That I…
…Was Over You…
…But, It‘s True…
…So True…
…I Love You Even More…
…Than I Did Before…
…But, Darlin‘, What Can I Do…
…For You Don‘t Love Me…
…And, I‘ll Always Be…
…CRYING…
…Over You…
…CRYING…
…Over You…
…Yes…
…Now You‘re Gone…
…And From This Moment On…
…I‘ll Be CRYING…
…CRYING…
…CRYING…
…CRYING…
…CRYING…
…CRYING…
…Over You.”
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I Know What You’re Wondering, My Peeps, I Really Do.
Is Young Bradley Sad This Morning?
Bradley Only Busts-Out The ROY ORBISON When He’s In A Downer Mood.
And, In Thinking That, You’d Be (almost) Very VERY Correct.
I Am Sad, This Morning.
It Happens.
To All Of Us, It Happens.
After Having A Conversation Last Night With Someone, My Mood Has Been Sinking Further And Further.
Again, It Happens.
Every Single Day Can’t Be Bubblegum And Candy, Ya Know?!
And, While I Do Tend To Listen To ROY ORBISON When I’m Down…
…I Also Listen To Him When I’m Supremely Happy.
There’s No Rhyme, Nor Reason.
It Just Happens.
But, Today, I’m So Very VERY Sad.
Being Taken To Task About One’s Life (or lack thereof) Is Never A Conversation One Enjoys.
In That, I’m Very Human.
I Didn’t Like It One Bit.
And, I’d Be Lying If I Said It Didn’t Effect Me On All Levels…
…Mental…
…Emotional…
…Physical…
…You Name It.
Did I Cry?
Even A Little?
You Betcha.
Did I Feel Better Afterward?
No.
Not In The Slightest.
In Fact, I Felt Weak.
I Felt Disgusted With Myself, Honestly.
Why I Let Anyone/Anything Effect Me Like That Is Beyond Me.
But, It Happens.
To The Very Best (and very worst) Of Us, It Happens.
So, This Morning, I Felt It Was Time To Work A Bit.
I Had To Get This Out Of My Head, Even In Some Small Way.
“CRYING“
byROY ORBISON
((with k. d. lang))
…Is My All-Time Favorite Duet In Music History.
Period.
In My Book, It Doesn’t Get Any Better.
I Sincerely Hope Y’all Enjoy It.
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QUESTION:
When YOU Are Sad, What Songs Do YOU Listen To, My Peeps???
Anything Specific, Or Special???
Let Me Know.
I’d Love To Know.
May I Know?
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What The Hell Is Going On Around Here?!?
Honestly, My Peeps, So So Very Much Has Been Going On.
Life Has Been Quirky…
…Odd…
…Frustrating…
…Wonderful…
…Horrible…
…Exciting…
…Trying…
…Oh, So Very Very Trying.
BUT…
…I’ve Been Weathering It All Quite Well, I Would Say.
I Know It Has Been A While Since We’ve All Shot-The-Shit…
…Kicked-It-Back…
…Talked-Some-Shop…
…BUT…
…I Sincerely Promise There Have Been Plenty Of Quality Reasons.
You See, My Peeps, I’ve Been Trying Very Very Hard To Have A Life.
It’s Not Something I’m Really Accustomed To.
Like, At All.
But, I Have Been Trying.
I Got Myself A Man.
I Got Myself A Job.
I Got Myself Fired From Said Job Before It Really Got Going. 
I’ve Been Playing The Helpful/Dutiful Son.
I’ve Been Playing The Helpful/Dutiful Grandson.
I’ve Been Playing The Helpful/Dutiful Boyfriend.
I’ve Been Playing For The Sake Of Playing.
I’ve Been Having FUN For A Freakin’ Change, And Trying To Enjoy Every Moment Of It.
Sadly, It Hasn’t All Been Fun And Games.
I’ve Had Multiple Family Members Die Over The Past Few Months.
:*( :*(
I’ve Suffered Through A Couple Bouts Of Fairly Extreme Illness.
Life Has Really Been Bringing The Heat, But Totally Keeping Me Honest With A Steady Supply Of Curve-Balls.
Sheesh, I Tell You.
Sheesh, Indeed.
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I’m Writing This Today Because I’m Looking To Begin Again.
I Miss Working On This Blog A Bundle, Though I Admit I Could Have Come Back To Y’all A Lot Sooner.
But, I Chose To Continue Being A “Reblog-Whore” And Just Let Things Ride.
I Still Plan To Be A “Reblog-Whore”, But I’ll Be Injecting Myself Into Things Whenever I Can.
TODAY…
…APRIL 10TH…
…Is My Birthday.
Everyone Always Asks The Same Question:
"DO YOU FEEL ANY OLDER?"
Honestly, My Peeps, Yes Yes YES I DO.
Period.
I Know I’m Not THAT Old, But I’m Old Enough.
Old Enough To Realize I Have To Continue Trying To Have A Life.
Old Enough To Understand How Important It Is To Continue Onward.
Old Enough To Feel Old Enough.
I’m Tired, My Peeps.
I’m So Very Tired.
But, There Are Still Duties To Perform…
…And Life Goes On.
I’m Going To Leave Y’all For Now.
But, I Do Promise To Be Back Again.
I’ve Been Writing A Lot.
Pen-To-Paper, Ya Know?
Perhaps I’ll Be Sharing More Of That With Y’all.
I Plan To.
So Let Us All See If I Actually Make That Happen.
I Really Do Plan To.
As I Exit (for now) I’m Going To Leave You With A Song.
A Song That Has Quickly Become A Personal Favorite.
DEPECHE MODE Has Just Released Their Latest Album, “DELTA MACHINE“, And I’m Totally In LOVE/LUST With It.
The Song For Today Is…
“SOOTHE MY SOUL“
…And It’s A Real Kicker!
I Sincerely Hope Y’all Enjoy It.
I Find It Simply Exceptional!!!
Please Take Care, My Peeps.
I’ll Write More When I’m Able.
Until Then…
…Take Care…
…Be Good…
…See Me Soon…
…And Talk To Me Sooner!!!
Much Love To Y’all, Fo SHO Fo SHO!!!
